1. |
Resolutions
03:22
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Bleary headed and clouded eyes as you open up a day planner for the first time
as an adult
People expect you to write shit in it and remember it later and check it often but you know
that'll never work
But you pick up your favorite pen and write down that 3:15 appointment with your doctor.
Move your hand and the ink smudges so you won't recognize your own handwriting the next time you look
You've already fucked up.
But You'll get a new one
Next year
You'll get a new one
Next year
Productivity screeching to a halt on that project you've been dedicating your time to
You're already blocked
But three pages deep in a letter to your uncle explaining why calling an entire class of people 'lazy' is a form of casual racism
And sure it’s good to try to do that but these resolutions you made to get more shit done
You broke them so fast
But you'll make a new one
Next year
(You broke them so fast)
You'll make a new one
Next year
(You broke them so fast)
You'll make a new one
Next year
(You broke them so fast)
You'll make a new one
Next year
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2. |
Abandon Ship
02:21
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Hard to believe that you have grown so detached
This smell of hope has turned to ash
You think it’s easy to exist like this
Out in the world that you have crashed
Hold the phone
And fix this now
Repair somehow
Or you’re repeating history
We'll just be sinkin' on this ship
Or we can try to
Do
Better
Though it doesn't matter in your eyes
We'll just be sinkin' on this ship
Or we can try to
Be
Better
Though it doesn't matter in your eyes
In your eyes
We'll just be sinkin' on this ship
Or we can try to
Do
Better
Though it doesn't matter in your eyes
We'll just be sinkin' on this ship
Or we can try to
Be
Better
Though it doesn't matter in your eyes
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3. |
One Thousand Lies
03:36
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He said he was an orphan
I guess I should’ve known more then
But you know I want to see the best in everyone
She gave him places to sleep
Before the waters got too deep
But what happened after no one
could predict
She said he was an orphan
But clearly he wanted more than
Whatever sob story would suffice
Then she told us he'd be leavin
but we found his body in the evenin'
Oh what
The
Hell
She'd agonize
Over one thousand lies
That should've been drowned at sea
Before we were ever there
No one should have to live like this
Hiding just to exist
We’d all have been drowned at sea
Before he would even care
At first she tried to cover
Stories leading to another
But our faces clearly were not buyin' shit
She relented and went further
Explained that he was there to hurt her
And we had to admit she had
No choice
She said that there were others
Always changing their cover
And all they want to do is live in peace
But then a sound in the doorway
And she disappeared completely
Oh
What
Next?
We'd agonize
Over one thousand lies
That shoulda been drowned at sea
Before we were ever there
No one should have to live like this
Hiding just to exist
We'd all have been drowned at sea
If she were never there
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4. |
This Rest Stop Sucks
03:59
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Tired
Open window stings your tired face
How long's it been since laughter was replaced
All these things just end in our disgrace
No
I won't give up so easily
There may be nothin' as far as we can see
But we're not alone
No we're not alone
I know it feels like we have had enough
And all these things are empty to the touch
But We're not alone
No we're not alone
Though we may be fallin' deeper still
I'll hold on if you promise that you will
Stop
I swear we've already seen that truck
Can I just say this rest stop fuckin' sucks
But we will be safe
Rain
Sheets of water pourin' through these holes
We shoulda fixed 'em weeks ago, I know
Hindsight must be laughin’ I suppose
But No
We won't give up so easily
And though this may be the end of all we see
Well we're not alone
No we're not alone
I know it feels like we have had enough
When everything is empty to the touch
But We're not alone
No we're not alone
Though we may be fallin' deeper still
I'll hold on if you promise that you will
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5. |
Fluorescent Lights
02:46
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Stretchers and
Nurses and
You just sit there waitin
Coin in and
Food out and
Pattern goes on repeatin'
You'll eat whatever
You can find here
The hours
Tick by and
Still you are left here guessin'
If they are even
Still alive
Pace in a circle waitin'
And curse these fluorescent lights
"No News Is Good News" they say
you'll break that door with your eyes
The doctor said she'd be a while
But you need those questions answered so you hold on
The sun and moon have come and gone
But on the bright side
The cafeteria opens soon
It's been sixteen hours
When's someone gonna tell me something
Anything
I don't even need details
Sixteen hours
When's someone gonna tell me something
Anything
I don't even need details
Sixteen hours
When's someone gonna tell me something
Anything
I don't even need details
Sixteen hours
It's been sixteen hours
It's been sixteen
Hours
Pace in a circle waitin'
And curse these fluorescent lights
"No News Is Good News" they say
you'll break this door with your eyes
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6. |
You Need Better Friends
03:17
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Lookin out the window
You see the sun's up
It was all a dream perhaps
Colors are all desaturated
Were they always like this or
Did you just finally snap
And you're better off alone than with people who
belittle you
And gaslight you
And make you feel unsafe
Why spend 3 months with someone who can't be
Bothered to stop saying transphobic shit
And you try
You fool
You try to find
the good in them still
But you're free do this your way
And you're free to try till your heart just gives out
And you're free to learn the hard way
Some people are just assholes
And they don't deserve your time
The very next day
you feel lighter than air
Your friends can't believe what you said
It's somehow wrong to tell people
That they're killing your soul
And scarring your head
Cuz you're better off alone than with people who
Are spreading hate
And live afraid
Of those with different skin
Why waste a breath on someone who can't be
Bothered to stop being misogynist trash
And they try
Those fools
They try to
Tell you they're good deep inside
You were free to do this your way
You were free to try till your heart just gave out
And you had to learn the hard way
Some people are just assholes
And they don't wanna change
Some people are just assholes
And you don't owe 'em anything
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7. |
Impostor Syndrome
03:42
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The day was off to a good start
A lead, a sale, a raise
but brain fills with intrusive thoughts
And all good things erased
Someone compliments your work
It makes you hesitate
You know somehow that shoe will drop
And kill you while you wait
But
Hold on
This isn’t you talkin'
For so long
You were raised to believe that your brain can't be wrong but it’s
So wrong
You gotta stop listenin'
And find your worth
Every win comes with a shock
Time and time again
Ticking borrowed time till you're
Abandoned by your friends
Cuz someday they will find you out
Someday they'll see you
For this bed of trash you are
Who cannot follow through
You cannot follow through
But
Hold on
This isn’t you talkin'
For so long
You were raised to believe that your brain can't be wrong but it’s
So wrong
You gotta stop listenin'
And find your worth
Block it out
You need to some how
And when you're down
Know that
There's only you and you're good enough
And you've earned all these things that you're good at
There's only you and you're good enough
You'll be the best you, you're good enough
Wait and see
Wait and see
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8. |
The Albatross
03:07
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Facing all these things that we've broken
Scares you inside-out for a moment
But deep breath in
Chin up
We got this far
It's time to finish what we all started
With bruises, bleeding limbs, broken hearted
But all
Together now
We got this far
They say that we'll disappear
But the math that they do to get here doesn't check out
They're waiting for the all clear
From superstitions and fears
But the weight of it all is gone from our necks
Blink once or twice and it's over
And sure you're beaten down and feel older
But against
all odds and reason
Here we are
They said that we'd disappear
And proving them wrong shouldn't feel this good
They're waiting for the all clear
From superstitions and fears
And the weight of this is all is gone from our necks
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9. |
Fuzzy Photographs
03:48
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Eyes twitch
Throat dry
The more you stare the more aware of this
Lie
You say that we're wasting our time but it's the only thing we've got
And what devours these frozen hours says we're right
Didn’t want to be right.
But you say that you remember
All these things that
Should've kept us weathered
But all you've got are fuzzy photographs
And a promise of relief that
Will never come to visit
And why would it
The evidence just isn't
Proof enough that when we weigh that shit
You can tell me that it's worth it.
Time it out
It's been over ten years now
And instead of re-livin' this
We smile
Cuz it's easier to just
evade
And pretend it's all ok
The odds of us all right here
Were slim
and it's easier to just
Stop
Cuz I don't even know you
This person you're supposed to be
Is quite dead
And wait
I shouldn't even know this
You're fuckin' up the process
For me instead
But you tell me you remember
All these things that
You were never there for
so we pull out fuzzy photographs
And we're starting to believe that
When you tell me you remember
All these things that
You couldn't have been there for
And finally we weigh that shit
And we're starting to believe it
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10. |
Cosmic Wound
05:25
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Rising frustrations
Lasting implications it’s done
The hardest part was thinking that
we had more time
"Spur of the moment"
Yet they had to know that we’d die
The hardest part was having friends who believed
That lie
But on their face
They realize that their mistakes are alive
And created this wound
But fear misplaced
They’re searching for someone to blame for the lie
That created this wound
But hold on
We’ll get back to rage in a moment
It’s ok to feel fucken broken
That’s no reflection on you
but it’s okay
We may not feel very hopeful
But we’ll burn these fuckers down wholesale
Before they get started on you
Completely surprising how
Dehumanizing it feels
The hardest part was caring if
We’d stoop to their low
Civil innuendo
Gets thrown out the window with glee
The hardest part was knowing this
Hate comes naturally
You see their face
They’re quickly learning their mistakes are alive
They’ve created this wound
With baited breath
They’re justifying countless death for the lie
That created this wound
But hold on
We’ll get back to rage in a moment
It’s ok to feel fucken broken
That’s no reflection on you
But it’s okay
We may not be very hopeful
But we’ll burn these fuckers down wholesale
Before they get started on you
But hold on
We'll get back to rage in a moment
It's ok to feel fucken broken
It's ok to feel fucken broken
But hold on
We’ll get back to rage in a moment
It’s ok to feel fucken broken
That’s no reflection on you
But it’s okay
We may not feel very hopeful
But we’ll burn these fuckers down wholesale
Before they get started on you
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11. |
The Plan
03:57
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In the cover of the night
I'll take the guards on the left
and you'll take right
If we pull this off those dogs won't even know
We’ll be keepin’ out of sight
Silhouettes dancin’ past
The lantern light
Halls of decadence with emptiness below
They say that wrongs can't make a right
Guess it all depends on yer definition
But the people making rules like that are never at risk
They sure thought we wouldn't fight
Well surprise!
Can’t believe that we’re inside
Months of planning and some intense
Overtime
Standing toe to toe with opulence and wealth
Don’t they know that people die
Every day based on things that they
decide
But this ivory tower’s temptations have swelled
They say wrongs can’t make a right
I guess that all depends on your definition
But the people makin rules like that are never at risk
They sure thought we wouldn’t fight
Well…surprise!
Stick to the plan
This world you don't believe in
But I think it's time we're leavin'
And we don't belong
But where do we go
From here?
Please respond
Where do we go
From here?
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12. |
Retrospection
02:07
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N/A
[Instrumental]
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Curious Quail New Haven, Connecticut
Curious Quail is an orchestral + chiptune indie collective with members in the San Francisco Bay Area, the Pacific Northwest and southern New England that mix fuzzy guitar rock, orchestral instrumentation and music made with Nintendo Gameboys.
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